Tuesday Evening

Tuesday evening, drizzling in the city. pretty cold.
well, its been very cold for the past 1 week. i don't know why i felt so cold in this year's winter. last year was fine for me. i don't really think it was that cold compare to this year. do you guys agree with me? (only for people in Melbourne). all my friends leaving. 1st, my housemate left. then my god sis (last night) and now my neighbour leaving tonight. i caught up with her just now when i was on my way to gym. she;s like, HEY, how r u... i am going back for 12 days. in the moment, i felt abit bitter coz it seems every1 is leaving. i felt really lonely. i find it so hard to cope as in, in the cyber world, i have heaps of friends and when comes to reality i find myself mixing around with the same people like Beckie, Laney, Anthony, Sam, Derek and Jason. i hardly go out with other friends i know in msn altho i went out with them before.
i had this funny feeling, bit bitter but satisfied. i was walking back from gym just now. there's this lady that stop me and asked me to spare her a few dollars. i was like, sorry i don't have any change altho i do have 50cents in my bag. then i said i am so sorry, she said its OK and later on gave me a smile. my heart melted at that instant and i felt pity for that lady and i even blame myself why didn't i spare her a few dollar. (i am currently broke) anyway, later on i had this thought like, if i were that lady or in the future become on of them wondering around in the streets asking passer by for money. what am i gonna do? what if no 1 pity me and spare me some money for food? what if i die in hunger? what if i am cold to death in this freaking cold weather in Melbourne? when i put myself on the spot light, i instantly got the thinking of studying really hard and grad from uni and work till i earn big bucks. i guess its every1's goal to earn money.
oh yeah talking about uni, i got 2 condition offer letters from Melbourne uni and RMIT itself.
i should be happy but i am just numb and pretty scared tho. to get into Melbourne U, i have to finish my 2nd semester of mechanical engineering and pass with an average of distinction. i read the condition then i said OMG want me to finish next sem ? i am gonna pass Melbourne U altho i really wanna go in Melb U. they provide better course structure and the syllabus are better. RMIT instead offer me a next sem with the condition of submitting my marks of sem 1 when i get my marks. then they go from there. so, i prolly can only choose RMIT. i was having this thought that maybe i can finish a year in RMIT 1st then change to melb U with a score of average distinction. hopefully i will get in. most important of all, i can get into Accountancy course by next sem. i cant bare to think if i continue engineering. its like getting torture so badly.
hehehe, i am now really taking my time to groom myself and make sure the house is clean is smells good. i am actually doing mask. so relaxing. i am happy.
Charles said he is gonna ask me out tonight for drinks. he better call!! i am bored. sigh.
oh! MYERS having mid year clearence!! go go go and get what eva you all want!!