PROBLEMS!!!

okie okie, 1st of all, big shout out to Laney sis....
its her B'DAY TODAY.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
so i am here sitting in starbucks coffee at tanjung tokong complex.
soo freaking tired. SERIOUSLY.i am so exhausted after swimming in the morning n maybe the sun tanning is too much...
anywya, i went to gym 2 hours later my swim in the morning. and i knew it i am totally flat out of energy and its true i cant bloody carry any weights.. all seems so heavy. i am really tired..
but hey, i still finish my gym weights session. giggles.
so talk bout last saturday, i was suppose to go to this pool party that kaze and her friend , yen held...but too be honest, i wasnt feeling comfortable attending the party. 1st of all, yen n his friends. i absolutely dont know them. 2nd they are homophobic. (i dont know but yen seems like homophobic). 3rd, i dun really feel like drinking beerz and paying 30 or 50 for the beerz.
therefore, when she called me to go to the party i was really deciding and trying to force myself to go for the sake of not making kaze unhappy. but at certain times its wise to say no. then later on, i smsed kaze and told her that i really dont want to go. she went furious and i definitely apologize to make sure she is not mad but unfortunately she is still furious. she stopped talking to me, she never answered my call. i mean, i kept apologizing but hey its not my fault and you cant force a person will to go right? i am not mad at her but her attitude made me thought about my attitude. maybe i;ve changed or she had. so yeah, she is still angry at me. i dont wanna give a damn anymore, if she is going to go on like that let it be. i really cant give a fuck.
so last night, i chatted with mikeal and he advised me on some issued i had. so i told you i was rejected for 2 course application out of 3... and i;ve been thinking about it. if i dont have any choice left i'll go for advance dip for archi/interior design. mikeal told me that interior dont need care about degree but all about good n polished folio. so yeah i am thinking of going to interior advance if i cant get into degree.. mum also said get to advance 1st then see what happens. but this time, i gotta score with high distinction. why u may ask? its because i wan to get a scholarship if i can...so i gotta fight hard for my scholarship. see what happens then ^^
one thing i am worried is about financial. if i am a millionaire i wouldn't be fucked about it.